Emotional Drowning

It's been approximately 48 hours since I talked to my ex. As I previously stated, I had Verizon block his number. I feel like I'm drowning without him... And I feel pathetic for feeling like that. How did I become the victim who feels as though she can not stand alone without an abusive prick?

I feel like I've pulled off a bandaid that was attached with superglue - and that when it came off it took off a ton of flesh, now I'm left with a very deep and painful wound... I wish I had some lidocaine to put on it...