I finally had the gaul to block my ex's phone number. For the past several months I go back and fourth not talking to him. I'll not talk to him, until I start to feel lonely or vulnerable and start talking to him and continue talking to him until I start to feel close to him again, and then I have to burn the bridge, and say something self deprecating or nasty to him (for instance tonight I called him a man whore, reminded him that I was nothing to him other than one of his harem, and that I hope that his dick shriveled up turned black and fell off)... and then stop talking to him again until the cycle repeats itself. I'm pretty good at not being the first to text him, its when he says the first thing that I lose all gumption and have to answer him...
I also realized recently that I don't think that I would have fallen for him so hard if we actually talked on the phone instead of just texting. That just made it even easier to project on him... and fall in love with my idea of what he should be.
He's an ass hole. I hope this blockage holds...
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